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Monday, October 22, 2007

i had thought that i had gotten over it.. i had thought that i had kan kai le.. i had thought that it does not affect me that much le.. but y? y do i feeel envious of the others who had the chance for a re-exam? at least they r given a second chance.. yet i feel happy for them.. at least they gt another chance to prove themselves..n y do i still feel like crying whenever a teacher show her concern n had a chat wif me? 3 teachers had a small conversation wif me todae... n all made me feel like crying.. all ask me if im ok.. wat m i to reply? duh.. ok lo.. i guess i look ok on the outside.. even happy mayb.. but i dunno.. inside it hurts.. it is a painful reality.. hah y am i so weak.. stop these negative tots! i had to move on.. its part of life.. stand up.. sighs.. dad coming back this week.. n im dreading it.. i seriously dunno wat will his reaction be.. but rite nw.. i m preparing for the worst.. feeling guilty at the same time for nt being glad that hes bad.. its rare for him to come back.. coz onli get to see him like every few months? onli come back for ard 4-5 times per yr? working overseas.. it is hard on him and yet.. i m feeling so ungrateful..argg...

changes are plentiful in life.. friendships are unpredictable in life.. im sry if i shut myself out.. im sry if i sound cold to u.. im sry that im nt confiding in u... i juz cant bring myself to do it.. perhaps last time i can.. but this time.. i realli cant... im sry.. this may seems like i dun trust u or wat.. but i assure u.. thats nt the case.. i juz cant bring myself to tok about this topic to u.. i dunno hw to start.. n dunno wat to sae.. perhaps u nv notice.. but im nt the type of person who can tok freely bout my inner feelings.. im sry.. but juz wan to tell u that.. perhaps when i realli gt over it.. i may tell u.. though that may nt matter anymore to u.. juz to tell u that.. once a gd friend.. always a gd friend.. though it may nt seems like it at the moment.. but haf faith in the friendship.. if the click is there, if the link is there.. it will nt waver..

k i shall move on to horoscopes haha ok its random.. nvm.. aniwae 3 diff descriptions as followed lol.. its so fun!

July 27 - 31 ~ Cat (lol so zhun.. im a cat haha)

If you are a Cat: An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy,with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool, when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

haha a bit zhun leh.. eh ROFL.. fashion! me? wahaha thats a joke man.. the others i tink quite zhun hoho but duno if ppl feeel easy in my company nt.. haha

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

wahha some quite zhun sia.. esp the forgiving but nv forgets haha i admit i very ji chou de.. lol hehs thats one of my bad pt ba lol. mm yeah i love to isolate! be a loner! lol broods bout the past.. hoho im always doing that.. lol lala juz picking out some interesting pts hoho

Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

eh speechless haha but some quite zhun like rare to find? lol n gd when found? wahahah ok im praising myself... forget tat u haf seen this ppl.. =D

~~it realli hurts...~~

i can do it! believe in myself!

10:33 PM

Shinobi: KatherinePhang

Code Name: Kat

Birthday: 27th July 1990

Email: katherinephang@hotmail.com

Age: 17

Horoscope: Leo

School: Swiss Cottage Secondary, Anderson Junior Collage

CCA: St.John Ambulance Brigade, ODAC - Outdoor Activities Club =D

Likes: Animes, comics, nature, daydreaming, listening to music, sleeping, isolation...

Dislikes: Vegetables, unfair people...

My Wishlist

Naruto Animes

Anime Comics

Portable DVD player

Prince Of tennis animes

Shades of Truth Vcds

Take My Word for it Vcds

New animes

A sling bag

Go out with SJ members on an outing again =D

Compile photo albums for various memories

A pair of roller blades

Hard disk drive

a new mouse

an ipod or psp