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Tuesday, January 22, 2008

hmm hw shall i describe my life nw? hmm im standing in the middle of a forkroad.. if i look over to the left road.. i saw a big big prison... though complimented wif very good friends... though i can feel some suffering n strugglin is needed.. having spent 1 yr there... its a bit suffocating for me.. yet.. if i look over to the right.. i onli saw.. a dark..black.. never ending tunnel.. cant see the end.. endless uncertainties.. dunno if i can cope.. dunno if i can adapt.. dunno if i can do well.. a road where i will either find the ray of light... or sink in the endless darkness... shld i take the risk? n try to carve out a better road for myself? or stick to familiar grounds? i dunno.. still considering... once i step forward.. it will be a road of no return.. but do i haf the courage to take the first step? i do not noe.. well.. conflicting thoughts.. sighs...

i find life more enjoyable nw compared to the first dae in a new class... laughter fills my daes.. coz i get funny teachers n nice classmates.. though there may still be an empty feeling in my heart.. but nw... i tink that feeling has been buried 3/4 by laughter.. lol .. realli like my friends i made.. lol e times when we joke bout... oh i will miss that...but i still miss my previous class... sighs...

when has things deteriorate to this state? i tink the more we try to fix it.. the more it will backfire.. things has becum quite awkward for the both of us.. frm my pt of view... cant find back the momentum we once had.. or shld i sae can onli catch glimpses of it at random timing.. like kbox.. or when we r playin some lame games such as tying together.. for me.. i tink will juz leave things as it is.. i dun wan it to deteriorate till we r onli acquitances.. to my sadness.. i tink tat there are times that i catch glimpses of acquitances relationship.. i miss de daes we had.. the times we spent together.. i miss the times when we share secrets.. laugh together..e days where there are no cracks in our friendship... tis may onli be my own feelings.. but i juz wan to sae.. im sry fer the way this turns out.. i dunno if it wil ever right itself.. but juz wan to sae that i will always rmb the times we spend together..

people walk in n out of ur life... but can u find someon that will stay by ur side? thats a qn i dread to hear the answer....

9:48 PM