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Friday, March 07, 2008
hmm todae.. had a heart to heart talk wif keet lol.. dun ask me y.. it juz so happens? lol pure chance.. plus the selection camp.. has made me doubt myself again.. i realli sux at leading.. gif me sth to plan... i can do.. anithing that is behind the screen.. i can do my best.. yet.. when it comes to executing.. i sux... to the bloody max.. felt so useless.. for rafting.. juz standing there.. walking abt.. feel that my existence there is like xtra.. so kadefair.. not 1 place needs me.. i juz feel useless to the max.. i m a follower.. im nt suited to lead.. rafting comm ic.. haha.. i laugh at myself.. so yea? i wonder lots of time.. without stopping.. y m i selected last yr.. me who nv went through the selection camp.. coz i gt a bloody high fever.. its quite depressing.. to feel that u r like nt fitted to join.. to be like the rest.. at least they realli get selected.. if u noe wat i mean.. i wonder.. realli wonder.. n the most depressing thing is.. i wonder if mr chin is disappointed.. if he feels that he made a wrong choice for me to be kana selected last yr...im nth but trouble.. haha bad record for being caught playing cards.. where i didnt even play. juz that the cards r mine? hw bad can i get? n such a useless member.. oh gosh.. my confidence, esteem is dropping.. n sometimes i tink i sux at human relations.. cant even stand myself sometimes.. gosh.. there r friends n there r friends.. zz juz feel that some dislike me.. the dislike hidden under some fake exterior.. sighs.. worse thing is... i juz feel that i m lousy.. retain.. cant lead.. cant excel here nor there.. wonder wat im living for.. yet life is so beautiful.. or shld i sae life gt double sides.. it can get realli ugly or realli beautiful.. sighs.. arggg Shinobi: KatherinePhang Code Name: Kat Birthday: 27th July 1990 Email: katherinephang@hotmail.com Age: 17 Horoscope: Leo School: Swiss Cottage Secondary, Anderson Junior Collage CCA: St.John Ambulance Brigade, ODAC - Outdoor Activities Club =D Likes: Animes, comics, nature, daydreaming, listening to music, sleeping, isolation... Dislikes: Vegetables, unfair people... My Wishlist Naruto Animes Anime Comics Portable DVD player Prince Of tennis animes Shades of Truth Vcds Take My Word for it Vcds New animes A sling bag Go out with SJ members on an outing again =D Compile photo albums for various memories A pair of roller blades Hard disk drive a new mouse an ipod or psp
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