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Tuesday, September 02, 2008

procrastinating again.. been blog hopping n hehs got this photo frm zhu's blog. can u spot me? hoho zz swiss repaint the background... i dun tink i will go back swiss nxt yr.. few teachers to visit also... sianz ji pua...

izzit me who has changed? or everyone else? changes happen all the time.. i dunno if its time? or the feelings had jux died down.. wat i feel strongly in the past... has become quite diluted.. nw there seems to be things that mean more to me.. friendships.. once i had felt strongly for it.. cried over it.. ponder bout it.. nw.. i had let go... n surprisingly... it felt better... to not haf strong connections.. true.. this may be missing some part of life.. if a best friend exists.. but for nw.. good friends are enuff for me.. poly friends.. sec sch friends.. jc friends.. yea.. good friends are enuff.. i dun feel a need to haf a very close friend that strongly animore.. like that i wun haf to wry bout all these friendships thingy.. i guess that place will forever be empty.. for me.. family still comes first ba..

last time.. theres a period where i feel friends come first.. but im wrong.. family is still the most impt.. n by family.. it includes all my cousins n so on... true.. hanging our wif friends or cousins will invoke different feel.. but i guess i still feel most comfortable wif cousins... at the very least they r the ones who grow up wif u.. where any bad points or gd points they will noe n wun care.. yea.. no toking behind ppl back...ok gt la.. big generation tok bout small generation XD wahahha no jumpy feeling.. no jealousy.. no hurt feelings.. for others or myself...

mayb im taking the coward way out.. by cutting off those impt friendships bonds.. ok la nt that serious as in cutting off but nt that persistent like last time to try n continue on.. coz im sick of always being the one to initiate.. yea.. i juz realise those friendsss in jc or sec sch ..who r close to me.. are always ppl who dun realli initiate things n yea.. thats tiring... so i cut off.. nt letting them occupy my tots, nt letting them invade my peace.. nw i feel happier.. isolating oneself is still the best... haha coward? perhaps.. its easier to ignore den to care bout.. or maybe is juz my relations wif ppl are not gd? hell do i noe? care bout family will take most of ur energy liao~

ahh woah its supposed to be a short post to ward off my boredom at asssignment.. well its all that pic.. let me contemplate bout things again gosh..

2:21 PM