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Wednesday, November 04, 2009

I feel that my thoughts are rusting nowadays, I mean as in thoughts that goes deep, somehow like how Mr Kamal taught us. I missed history, I missed analysing all those SBQs, I missed the feel of satisfaction felt after writing large chunks of words. I missed explaining my own answers, I missed trying to find out the purpose and motive of the writer. I missed thinking that much, to really think happily about the various sources, cross referencing and so on... All the facts were gone from my head, only the stories remained. I feared that my skills for history would diminish. I missed the adrenaline rush that I would feel about the afore mentioned subject.

Somehow, it just felt like my thoughts had become shallow of late. I should think deeper on issues and in whatever I do. I want to find back the secondary school me. The me who would put in much effort, to strive for the best and to be cheerful and laugh brightly. There seemed to be a stain that would spread with every footstep I take. The older I grew, the more I fear, and with it came restrictions, resulting in a part of me trapped.

Anyway, I finally did some work today haha. Though it is a bit only, but it is still work! yea! kudos to me! I shall gradually my working capacity... heex.

4:46 PM